I am a 50 year old mom/sister/daughter/wife and grandmother. I want to take you on a journey. It’s raw and I will speak on trauma’s in my life. I was pregnant at the age of 14. I gave birth to my son at the age of 15. I got married at the age of 16. I’m sorry my life is so not perfect. Please take from this the love, and passion. Although, I had so many bumps and bruises. God has given me the strength to overcome and help others.
Hello my name is Angela Hill, I live in Charlotte NC. Although, I lived in Salisbury NC. My Life changed on October 08, 2014! Three men in gorilla masks entered my home. They killed my only son, and brother, while we watched. The had my daughter and I seated on the floor with “Guns” pointed at our heads.
I heard the first gunshot in my sons room and said to myself. I know I did not just hear a gunshot! By this time there were three more fired! He walked out of his room after being shot four times. As my brother, daughter and I kneeled onto the kitchen floor. I looked up and saw a gunshot on my sons left side. He walked into the living room area where he tried to grab a gun that we kept for protection. He did not truly have the strength to do that. All I saw was he had fallen onto the floor on his back. The two gunmen that entered into his room were stumbling into the front door .While trying to get outside the door. My brother, was not a person that was going to allow anyone come into our home. Especially, knowing that they care into our home to kill ! The seven foot gorilla masked guy kept us down. As he got ready to make a run for it, my brother reached over my son lying on the floor. He wasn’t dead at this point. My brother was able to fire one shot at the last gunman in the house! But that made the gunman angrier. So, he turned around and fired five shots at my brother. He shot him from the shoulder all the way to his calf. That wasn’t enough that he shot him five times. He took the gun from my brother and shot him while beating him with the but of the gun. The brain seeped out of his head. While my daughter and I sat in disbelief.
The gunshots were so loud that it put us into another level of shock. Hearing gunshots back to back and seeing two bodies lifeless. I
then ran to the door to lock it. My daughter found a phone . He took our phones but we were able to find my daughters phone. Although it was fast, it was actually slow motion. As my daughter was on the phone with the dispatcher. I was talking to my son while blood runs out of his eyes. At this time I thought he was shot in the head. But he was bleeding from his neck . While looking over at my brother he had turned blue, and purplish immediately. He had congested heart failure previously. His tongue was protruding out of his mouth. My daughter was screaming and yelling in the phone ! She was panicking and like myself, reacting out of emotions. There was no ambulance, finally a responder came walking in slowly. As a officer, walked in asking me “Did I know who did this?” Honestly, I heard him but ignored a stupid remark. As the responder came in and checked the pulse on my son. He immediately pronounced him dead! I said, he can’t be.. I just felt his pulse, I told him loudly. At that time he pronounced my brother dead as well. My daughter and I were basically in shock. Although ,after the police and everyone came in in our minds we couldn’t fathom what just happened!
As I look into the deepness, scared or wise enough to know that I’ve survived death! There’s been times that I didn’t know God has protected me from. The worst night of my life was on 10/08/14. Yes, I witnessed the murders of my only son and brother.
Last year facing the three men that wore the gorilla masks. As they smiled with no remorse at all. It took all I could to quench all the feelings that the district attorney told me to withhold. Hearing how they plotted to kill my family. Premeditated everything, they bought the mask at Walmart. Then they went to Lowe’s to buy the ties to tie us up!
I began to wonder “Why?” “ What did everything I work for get snatched from me? In a blink of an eye, my life was turned inside out! The puzzles of my life were scattered all over the place. No one to ask, “ How do I bury the two men that I love? Where will I live? What happened to the people that loved me? All my family members turned their backs on me.
Covid-19 has triggered so much that I thought was healed. I found out there was things that was just sleep. Awaken by the thermometers that reminds us of the guns pointed at our heads. Then there are are the masks that triggers anxiety. Feeling as though you can’t breathe. Reminding us that they had on masks on. I remind myself “THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS!” My mindset has elevated even the more💙♥️💙 We are in this one together!
Music is peace to my soul, no matter what time of day! I listen to meditation music to relax my mind🗣🗣 especially the 💦 black rain. It sounds soothing and takes my mind into a vacation without being on vacation. If you can understand? We are at a #stayathome order all over the world 🌎 So I pray that you can find peace! And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ. Philippians 4:7.
Still Standing after the Storm TODAY’S SCRIPTURE: “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.” Matthew 7:24, NIV TODAY’S WORD: The Scripture says, “Your Father sends rain on the just and on the unjust.” Being a person of faith doesn’t exempt you from difficulties. Jesus told a parable about a wise man who built his house on a rock. This man honored God. Another man foolishly built his house on the sand. He didn’t honor God. Then the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on the houses of both the just and the unjust. But after the storm was over, the house built on the rock was still standing. The house built on the sand was completely ruined.
You may get knocked down and go through some dark, stormy times, but that’s just a part of life. It rains on everybody. The difference is that when you honor God, when you stay in faith, you have God’s promise that when the storm clears, you won’t be the victim; you’ll be the victor. You’ll still be standing. PRAYER FOR TODAY: “Father, thank You that my life can be built on the rock that You are, and I can live to honor You. Thank You for Your promise that no matter what comes my way, when the storm is over, I’ll still be standing. I believe that You will bring me through. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”
When life throws— SO MANY CURVE BALLS🤣🤣TRAUMA, PAIN, HURT, GOD BUILDS YOU UP FROM ALL THAT🗣🗣 LAYER BY LAYER. ALTHOUGH, IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE TO GET HIT IN 2014 with A DOUBLE HOMICIDE! 2019 FACING THE ONES THAT HELD YOU AT GUNPOINT & WITNESSING THE MURDERS. NOW, IN A SPIRITUAL WARFARE WITH COVID-19. IT’S A DARK PLACE RIGHT NOW!! BUT I’M FEELING GOD’S ELEVATION ALL AROUND ME🙌🏽 OUT OF THIS WILL BE BIRTHS OF VISIONS,DREAMS, AUTHORS, PROPHETS, MINISTERS, LEADERS , DOCTORS, NURSES AND THE LIST GOES ON. NO, THINGS WILL NEVER GO BACK THE SAME👀 “EYES HAVEN’T SEEN NOR HAVE EARS HEARD WHAT IS IN GODS PLAN🙏🏽 I KNOW THAT MANY HAVE SUFFERED LOSSES AFTER LOSSES! IT REMINDS ME IF, LOOSING.. MY ONLY SON & BROTHER AT ONE TIME. THEY DIED SIDE BY SIDE! LOSING MY HOME, AFTER 3YEARS OF HAVING IT PAID OFF! GOING THROUGH THE TRAIL ON MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR❣️ NOW WE ARE HERE, GOD’S LIGHT STILL SHINING BRIGHTER THAN EVER. SO, I SAY TO YOU. NO MATTER WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE, “ GOD GOT YOU!!!!” On 12/29/19 THE VISION GOD GAVE ME: TO HELP WOMEN!! Encourage, uplift & INSPIRING NO MATTER WHERE I AM https://band.us/n/aaad32Odi2230 (please join)
I never thought that the feelings I feel, would find there way back! The hurt that use to shatter my thoughts have somehow surfaced 😱! Being strong means, facing the hills and making your way over the mountains. Feelings are in your talk, thoughts, and the unknown. I wake up, PRAYING that NOTHING THAT WAS IN MY YESTERDAY FINDS ME ON TODAY🙌🏽 It matters what you see /feel / and experience as a child. At the age of 50 my life is flashing in and out my head. I am a prayer warrior and I can’t do it without God. Where do I start? I didn’t ask for any of the PAIN I’VE ENDURED. But I do know that God has Equipped me with all the Armor to fight these battles! Let’s be honest, No one asks for PAIN NOR DEATH! But in this thing called “life” we must understand. In order to “Glorify” the kingdom of God! He will allow you to go through A MESS TO GET THE MESSAGE! You will be PUT through “TEST” to deliver “Testimonies “ that someone will need to hear. Please don’t silence yourself and hear the voices that are on repeat in your mind. Unless, you know they are the holyspirit. Remember, the “BATTLE IS NOT YOURS, IT’S THE LORDS!”